a surprising turn of events.

since this is my first blog and the majority of surfers in the blogosphere have no idea who i am - the first couple of entries need to be read as if we grew up neighbors, we played in the same AYSO soccer league and we graduated with the same naive ideals. i never thought i could say the following sentence and putting it into print will immortalize it in the technological world. so here it goes [insert deep breath]...i could actually vote for hillary clinton. all those that do know me just fell out of there chair with complete and utter shock. like many moderate americans that support the troops and gasp at the idea of raising taxes, clinton does not have much appeal. she stands on a soap box squawking about reformed government, universal healthcare and affordable education but does not have (or at least does not articulate) an actual stone cold plan on how to fund her ideals. that being said, after starting carl berstein's "a woman in charge" i can give clinton credit for her ideals.

again me and those americans hating on gun control cringe at clinton's stone cold face and her exceptional way of molding a question into hatred of the bush administration or a glove slap to obama's campaign. the credit i can offer comes in the form of clinton's vague past. the americans and i quickly jump to despising clinton based on her politics and do not formulate opinions based on character. this could be for two reasons. the first is that the character of so many other politicians becomes the forefront and clinton is cast aside because of current good behavior. the other is simply clinton does not tell the american people about her past successes and more importantly failures.

when clinton cried in front of the nation, her delegate numbers went through the roof. the new clinton supporters said the tears "humanized" her. my jealously of clinton's successes immediately claimed those tears not as heartfelt but as a cheap political ploy that so many state senators and representatives in michigan use to be reelected in their districts of 70,000 or less. after reading the first 200 pages of berstein's book i can state (with limited ummpfs and cringes) that clinton's tears were heartfelt. if her campaign team wanted to use a tactic they would bring up clinton's years in college and her years working to reform the lives of children.

this book has completely changed my perception of clinton. she came from a psychologically abusive household and overcame depression to become a leader of the free world. before i read berstein's exquisite words i wrote clinton off as a former first-lady who saw a vulnerable opening in the democratic party and used it to her advantage. as i read through these pages and watch her overcome sexist qualms on the debates i'll say something for the second time that i thought i would say only if tortured...i may vote for hillary rodham clinton.